Last weekend with the busy schedule, meetings, events and gatherings I had a day where I relaxed, slept and thought of many things. I actually shutted down and isolated myself from every thing and stayed with myself.  It felt like I reached to this time in my life where I felt that I finally get it … When the voice inside my head CRIED OUT, “ENOUGH! Enough fighting, crying and struggling to hold on”. Out of the blue I sobbed and began to sink in my tears and thoughts, I shuddered, I then blinked back my tears and through my wet lashes I began to look at the world through new eyes.

This was my awakening …

I have come to terms with the fact that people don’t always say what they mean or mean what they say and that not everyone will always be there for you and that it’s not always about you. I realized the importance of distinguishing between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO. I reached the point where I was able to let go and stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. I remembered that I don’t have the right to demand love on my terms. And you know what, I know now that alone does not mean lonely…

Slowly, I began to take responsibility for myself by myself. I have made myself a promise to never betray ME and to never ever settle for less than what my heart desire. I now have a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to every wonderful possibility.

Today with courage in my heart and with Allah by my side I took a stand, and a deep breath and began designing the life I want to live as best as I can and elhamdullilah, I am on track, I can say that I have conquered the empire of my dreams and now its time to conquer myself.

P.S: Spend some time with yourself. Dedicate a “Me Time” you deserve it!

2 thoughts on “My Awakening ..”

  1. I loved this post, you may find it surprising but I had a moment with myself last week, I had similar thoughts like yours. I was reading few books and decided to actually some of the methods mentioned in them, it helped little bit.

    I would like to say and write alot about such topics but right now feeling a bit exhausted, might do that later. Keep up the good works up Heba 🙂

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